As most of you know my hubby and I live in Dallas, TX while the rest of our family & friends reside in STL, MO. Since BB was born (9 months ago) we've had 3 times were both of us have been away from him and 2 of those were date nights. Luckily my mother-n-law fly's in every few months and that's when we take advantage of getting out for a little bit.
It's getting harder, I need my husband, I need that time away, I need him to look at me and see me as more than the mother of his son. I miss talking to him (we talk, but it's about BB, it's bout work, it's while we sit on the couch and we're both on the computer or watching T.V.) I love our life, I love that I have both of them to myself but sometimes I wish we could just trust someone enough with our little guy and GET OUT!
I think it's so funny how guys can just leave, "hey hun, I'm going to the gym, the library, golf lessons" or just leaving to get out. But when I leave it's this whole planned ordeal, I have to wait tell BB takes a nap so when he wakes I can feed him, then sneak out for a few hrs. My sweet hubby watched BB yesterday while I ran a few needed errands, 1 hr into these errands I received my 2nd phone call from him only to hear complete silence on the other end...
Me "hunny, hunny, hello??"
PB "Can you come home?"
Me "What's wrong?"
PB "He coughed when he was eating and I'm scared."
Me "Ok, on my way."
PB "how long until you get here?"
I admit it feels awesome to be needed so much, to have the feeling that I'm the only one that knows that little boy in and out and that no one can care for him the way I can. Buuuuut, it's nice to have a little alone time too, o'well maybe in 5 yrs after the next one is potty trained!!